I GOT TEN DAYS!

the ics worker who helped me today helped me call the housing agency that i got the housing offer from today. she said that my name came up on the waiting list and i had 11 days to accept the offer or my name would be dropped off the list. in the back of my mind- i have this thought that people are gonna make excuses for me not to take this offer and i'll end up a loser, depending on social security, living in subsidized housing in minnesota and talking to my dogs while drinking pepsi and smoking cigarettes one after the other. i swear if people don't do their damn jobs to make this happen for me- i will be firing people. the lady who i told this to at the housing agency, told me i have until the 6th of march to PERSONALLY accept this offer.. so i need a plane ticket and moving arrangements made by then. i feel like this has happened before to me and they told me to just look for other places because it was too soon of an offer. i'll let you people know that if you don't help me at this time- you can look for NEW JOBS. i'm not kidding either. it feels like something like this happened for me with a new jersey apartment and people tried to tell me it was too little time to get everything in order. so this SAME shit and stupid story will just continue to be the same stupid excuse EVERY time. NO MORE. i'll find a way to get my own damn ticket and get there if someone doesn't help me do it safely guaranteed. i've done it before. don't push me. i'm crazy- i don't have anything left to lose anymore. so this little bit of hope to a new life actually gives me the desire to think good things are finally happening after 24 fuckin years. don't mess this up and stupid careless relatives can laugh at this all they want but that's just more proof of the little support to be happy doing the things I want in this damn state. i was thinking about this and God only promotes me in life.. everywhere i've lived has been better than the previous environment/place. i'm not looking for permission. just for support and i'm sure joe will support me, i don't know of anyone else though.